March 22, 2017

Don’t be a Jerry Maguire: You’re Whole Already

Did You Get the Perfect Relationship? Have you ever (however fleetingly) thought what life would have been like if you’d been with someone else instead of the one you’re with? For some this is a constant question, always wondering what it would be like to “trade up”. Still others might view relationships like a perpetual Easter egg hunt; always on the look-out for the next one. How about good old Jerry, his epic desperately uttered lines of “you complete me” where one half is always limping along looking for the other […]
April 13, 2017
Children playing hide and seek in a park in the fall.

Stop Hiding Out: Find Yourself

Hide-n-seek is only fun if someone finds you. We all have our favourite emotional hiding places. Internal or external vices used as activities, habits or masks. My favs are the ones that make me forget I’m hiding in the first place. Avoidance and Resistance are often my best friends. In the past, I’d sometimes refer to myself as, hiding in plain sight, which I was. For years I was the, lights-are-on-but-nobody’s-home, kind of gal, and looking back, no one really noticed anyway; not even me. But like anything else, all […]
April 13, 2017

Meditation: Awareness is Not for the Ambitious (it’s for us lazy folk)

Occasionally my BFF and I discuss “peoples” work ethic vs lazy tendencies. Her view is that most of us are lazy. Occasionally concerned she might be referring to me I usually defend the notion. It should be noted she is dedicated and hard-working and also noted, generally speaking, I am not. In cultivating awareness working does not work but laziness does. Working at expanding awareness is like working at getting a good dream, you can’t think about it or plan on it. Those things don’t work in fact it seems […]
April 13, 2017
A black silhouette of a man with a light bulb in his head.

Intuition: Psychic Abilities or (plain old) Awareness?

When someone suggests we’re intuitive, or “have intuition” it’s flattering to think we might have special mind powers–for the moment anyway. But really, all we’re doing in that one flattered moment is comparing our intellect with our perception of what we think might be magical thinking (with maybe some insightful luck thrown in). Intuition, which is really just a slightly expanded sense of awareness, is perfectly natural and every single living thing has “it”.  The real myth is thinking intuition is a part of the intellect at all. Intuition is […]
January 1, 2018
Is the practise of gratitude good for you?

The Meaning of Gratitude

  The Meaning of Gratitude I rarely use words like grateful or gratitude. When it comes to gratitude I choose my verbal utterances carefully, and (99% of the time) I use the word appreciation instead. Declining the use of the word gratitude was not based on an inability to feel appreciation; it was based on noticing what appeared to be an energetic drain when I did. Feeling or expressing gratitude drains you? Hmmm. Casually mentioning this, sometime later while socializing, drew suspicion. I imaged I appeared (at best) arrogant; maybe […]
May 2, 2018
Tarot cards

Ouija, Tarot, and Pendulums are Focusing Tools (and nothing to be afraid of)

Tools of the Trade Divination tools, like Tarot, are unimportant in and of themselves and are simply “tools of the trade” when used for readings. Tarot, dowsing rods, pendulums, crystals or any other divination tool you can name is the same. Tools are focusing devices and can act as prompts, or visual cues, when stilling your thoughts to access the peaceful knowing that comes from awareness. Other than that, divination tools are no different than any other object used for focusing an intention before letting the mind still. When I […]
May 16, 2018
Be Yourself

You Don’t Need a Guru (follow yourself instead)

4 Ways To Be A Leader In Your Own Life The job of being you isn’t to: regurgitate someone else’s intelligence copy someone else’s work translate or “massage” (another person’s) copy for your own brand When I say “intelligence” I mean the deep knowing we all have access too that comes from awareness—the knowing is that deep stillness of peace that is always there just below the endless noise of thoughts. Our own intel, that intuitive stuff that comes from us–is to solely for our own benefit–so that we’ll awaken […]
May 17, 2018

Part 3 of 4: A Haunting of Antique Wounds

“Don’t make it do too much”, whispers something in my head so with a practiced eye I edit the antique documents, jewelry and relics for a work related photo shoot. “Too much” is what I’m all about though–and that’s the problem. The mind stills as my eyes eat the inventory, ostensibly trolling for treasure but this hunger is old and has nothing to do with the job. On the contrary, it’s the very thing that can prohibit a job; and it’s the part of me that haunts. I want it […]
May 17, 2018
A child about to grabbed by ghost hands

Part 1 of 4: A Haunting: How to Read Energy Pockets

My kids likes DVD’s that start with the titles  A Haunting, and in this case, Spirits from the Past. There’s a series of them where common religious myths and archetypal themes dominate with angels and demons, portals and spirit animals, red Indians and ancient burial grounds and sometimes, even child-ghosts run amok. Some serious and believable-sounding anchorman does a voice over a reenactment. My daughter likes them and sometimes I’m interested too but mostly these shows are as far away from the truth as you can get. Oh it’s paranormal or […]
May 17, 2018
A red light at an intersection

Part 2 of 4: Ottawa Haunts Aren’t Ghosts

Hauntings aren’t ghosts, the paranormal, or supernatural activity. Everything is energy so what may appear to be hauntings are just energy pockets (or areas of space) we walk into and are able to perceive because we’re energy too. What happens is our energy actually aligns with the vibrational frequency, energy, in the pocket. Our energy aligning doesn’t mean anything more than having the ability to consciously perceive and translate the energetic patterns contained within that pocket. There’s no need to be afraid of this. Nothing in present time is happening […]
May 17, 2018
Graphic Art with Awareness as title and all the words that awareness may engender

Use it or Lose it? Misconceptions about Intuition

Ignoring your intuition over time does not cause it to diminish Popular books on intuition, or “how to be psychic” generally see authors alleging that many of us, in childhood, used to be intuitive but that over time we either grew out of it or lost the ability. If that were true, think how much nicer we’d all be if parts of ourselves just vanished from lack of use. Like for instance if my impatience had disappeared from lack of use—that’d be great–but I’m sorry to report, no such luck. So, […]
September 24, 2018
Handmade rag doll

Ottawa Doll Maker

For years I wanted to make rag dolls, out of cotton or linen. Year in, year out, I thought sewing a rag doll to life but felt afraid. What did I know of doll making? Nothing; and why did I want to make dolls? I didn’t know. Finally I couldn’t be disobedient to myself another minute and began to sketch, cut and sew. You know it’s kind of funny because that’s how it was with my daughter too. I felt her around me, at different times, for years, waiting to […]
September 24, 2018

Ottawa Handmade Rag Dolls

The Rag Doll Spokesperson (BluGirl Speaks) I’m Blugirl and I speak for the Gal Pal tribe of rag dolls handmade in Ottawa. Wanda’s the doll maker but I was me long before she laid hands to paper, cloth and scissors. And yet, I must give her some credit—for she listens you see—and allows that which is life (like me) to come through although I am not of her. BluGirl xo   The Rag Doll Anatomy Gal Pals are made of recycled textiles like cotton, silk, linen, wool and antique lace. […]
November 30, 2018
antique furniture for sale at and estate sale

Part 4 of 4: A Haunted House and A Murderous (Live) Ghost

A local haunting reveals a murderer.
January 8, 2019
Man sitting on wall downtown looking sad

Time Heals All Wounds?

Maybe not because it isn’t just the time spent, although the farther away from an emotional blow, the better you’re at making peace with it. It’s not just the time it takes though, it’s what you do with that time, the decision you make when you decide to (finally) let go of the pain or the person who caused it; and putting that decision into action by guarding your consciousness against the insertion of painful memories or longing. So, it may appear as if “time heals all wounds” but it’s […]
January 9, 2019

Liver Rescue

Antique Drawers and a Christmas Wreath